This feels by far like my greatest rite of passage yet. The journey to motherhood! Pregnancy! An exhilarating, intensely vulnerable roller-coaster gestation period where I have found strength and incredible support from my soul sisters around me. The world will never be the same and sometimes I am just overwhelmed by this blessing of life. I must be ready! But some days I am kicking and screaming as I wrestle with my inner pixie who just doesn’t want to grow up and claim her full power and responsibility as a woman. 38 years of only taking care of myself, and a few furry friends along the way have created and affirmed a selfishness of my life and all my own childhood nuances and fears leaping out of the cupboard to taunt me and tell me of the shadows of childhood/motherhood. Supportive, warm beings whispering in my ears of what a wonderful mother I will be only slightly lessens the fear of the harm that could come from projecting my crap onto this divine little being. I feeling the heightened sensitivity to all noises, smells, our patriarchal focused world … and again I dive into the deep dark reflective well that I know so dear, craving for a matriarchal, flourishing community of life around me. How can I bring this little being authentically into a world that I know is madness? There is nothing like this before that has shown me that now is the time to carve out the dreams that have been lingering in my heart, now is the time to plant the seeds to really create a future living integrally and in tune with nature and the ancient wise ways! Such a blessing to receive this gift!! I already feel the mama energy in me and wow … its quite incredible!
After an amazing month away I’m back and ready to take appointments again. I look forward to hearing from you all. Much love xxx
As I reflect over the awesomeness that was this weekend, I want to thank again all of you gorgeous dancing warriors that joined us for the journey … and that includes the amazing Friday night-ers that came just for one night. I am in so much gratitude for the depth of sharing and heart connections that occurred and were formed over the weekend.
Dancing brings up stuff, some bitter, some sweet, it bring us together, it brings us into our power, it brings us into our vulnerability and it brings us into our joy, truth and our true potential. When you combine that with a facilitator who carries with him his own gifts and intentions of breaking down barriers in humankind, you get an extremely heart warming and healing time for anyone there.
Tim Broughton created a very safe and loving space for us all this weekend, using exercise structures, the 5Rhythms, and our sacred dance space to bring us more into our hearts, truth and vulnerability. Our theme ‘Intimacy, Innocence and Connection’ had even made a few of our long-term ‘Soul Movement’ dancers feel the pangs of resistance in coming to this weekend but many just chose to ‘feel the fear and do it anyway’. Its scary to be open, showing our tenderness and vulnerability but wow does the world need it right now! Most people I meet are aching to feel at home in themselves again and aching to feel better connected to those around them. If we just do nothing about it, then nothing happens and we remain aching and longing, but this weekend really showed us that our power lies in our hearts … and to hear our hearts we need to let go of those conflicting thoughts and beliefs and make a few courageous innocent moves in the direction of what we want in our life and how we want to live. Thank you Tim and everyone for being a part of something that has recharged me, given me new tools and left me excited about how I can saturate these important qualities into my life.
Her message was clear – for us to be living in the power, beauty and sustenance that is Love and Heart consciousness, instead of the EGO consciousness that generates so much fear and suppression in ourselves.
THE POWER OF THE HEART
The energy of the heart is incredibly powerful – and the highest and most healing emotional state is gratitude (even more beneficial than LOVE). And we can CHOOSE to live in that state by just putting our focus there. Letting go of ego consciousness and moving into the heart also means letting go of the need for status, the fear of judgment, the need for more and more money, fame or approval from others and all the negative states that attach themselves to this way of living so we can instead be living and expressing our passions in a way that SUPPORTS all of life by loving each other and working together to stay awake, aware and active in our pursuits to care for each other, and care for and heal the Earth. When we bring our hearts together we are even more magical and powerful … we are not meant to stand alone.
WE HAVE NO MORE TIME
The message was so beautiful and simple, we ARE caretakers of Mother Earth, we all have a responsibility to act NOW to make the right choices to change ourselves and to save our beautiful planet because she’s being destroyed beyond repair and tipping over the edge rapidly. We aren’t going to hear about this in our news … but the scientists are telling us that there’s absolutely no time left. The poles have begun to shift and soon things will change dramatically for us all.
THE MAGIC OF CRYSTALS AND WATER
She stressed to us how we can also help our Mother Earth using the power of crystals to heal the radiation around us … pretty much everything is already contaminated with it now thanks to Fukushima and its continual daily release of radiation into the earth and sea …. we can put our intentions and prayers into crystals and release them back to the earth and the waters of our planet. Apparently quartz is the best for this. Even add them to your water jugs and fridges to cleanse your food of radiation (this has been proven to work!). It was really good to be reminded of the power of words and prayer upon crystals and water (and OURSELVES as we are mostly water!!) as already researched and proven by Dr Masaru Emoto and the famous ‘Hidden Messages in Water’. Every thought, wish, word we express, are literally creating imprints, moment by moment upon our emotional, physical and spiritual wellbeing and those around us. It is insane to choose to live from a lower vibration of being now that we know this.
CREATE YOUR PERSONAL PRAYER
My personal prayer for Jersey is that we slow down and listen to ourselves, to nature, the animals and the trees, and hear what is being said. That we look to support each other and care for each other and learn to express ourselves and our own needs and true passions. Is it really so important to keep on having to acquire more and more, each day working harder and harder mindlessly without respite or time to just BE? Will this all matter in the final analysis of what our lives have meant to be living here on Earth today when we leave our bodies as we all inevitably will do? Listen to your heart closely, what would your heart say right now if you quietened your mind and let your heart speak and act for you? Who would you Be if you let go of the importance of serving yourSELF?
Thanks to the Isis Centre for organising this great day!
Today is Beltaine! Day of fertility, new life, adorning the feminine, attracting new lovers and renewing our current loves, celebrations of warm long days. I spent much of the day reflecting. It didn’t occur to me earlier, whilst reflecting that it was actually Beltaine but my thoughts were very much with fertility today.
Perhaps because I see many women with fertility issues.
Why do they have fertility issues?
In truth, almost 100% of the women I see are in some way blocking their feminine expression in exchange of being high fliers in their workplace. Women in Jersey, are being carried along by the need to succeed, the need to achieve, the need to be active and to make their mark in the world with their careers. All women I see with fertility issues are big list writers, they like to be in control, they like to have things organised, compartmentalised, so that they can keep doing more more more, to keep their lives as they are, with their flats, houses, mortgages to pay ….
Hang on – didn’t women used to be frivolous, creative, wild, connected to nature, the moon, mothers of new life?
YES!!! We’ve lost our essence and we’re suffering physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually! And so is our island. We’re dishonouring the sacred temples of our bodies in exchange for more ticks on our lists. Our bodies are stagnant and craving to be shaken up, stirred, pushed to our edges and filled up with life. We’ve become half woman, half men … and we wonder why our passion is low, why we don’t feel excited … why we secretly crave to live the adorning life of Cleopatra for a day. We long to be frivolous, we’ve forgotten how to play, how to let ourselves go and be carried away by our creative natures.
Divine feminine energy represents these aspects within the universe:
Restoration, life, renewal, creation, birth, healing, receptivity, openness, motherhood, nurturing, love, understanding, compassion, insight, intuition, wisdom, forgiveness, the moon, connection, harmony and sensuality. To allow the divine feminine within ourselves to surface, we need to search for these aspects within ourselves. You will find that you are more in touch with some aspects of your divine feminine nature and less in touch with others. For example, you may be fully in touch with your own sensuality but not in touch with motherhood. If this is the case, expressing the divine feminine within you, means connecting with and expressing the latent motherhood within you in your own unique way.
Reflect and Enquire. What can I do to embrace my feminine?
Find ways to cultivate the above qualities. Ask yourself “what makes me feel alive?”
Ask yourself “what would make my body a more fertile place for new life?”
Ask yourself “How can I be more sensual?”
Ask yourself “am I ashamed or afraid of shining in my feminine essence?” “Am I afraid I’ll be judged?”
Why would I be afraid of being judged?
Maybe because modern day Jersey society generally places your value and worth on how much you are achieving – not on WHO you are.
Ladies, pamper yourselves, get in touch with yourselves, dance, make yourselves feel feminine, get together with other ladies, commit to healing the feminine in you and give yourself all the compassion to yourself that you can when you finally feel the pain of the separation from your sacred feminine.
And then RISE and celebrate your new birth!
So so so so sooooooo so so so so sooooo good to be back dancing again with the Jersey tribe on 1st April!!! What a gorgeous bunch of dancing hearts they are. Next dance is Full Moon women’s dance on 16th April. Come along and be in the magic for an evening!
I learnt over half my lifetime ago that this ancient cosmic system of knowledge and life beautifully supports our transformative processes and adds an extra dimensional insight into knowing who we are at the innermost core of our-self and also who we have the potential to become. Once we understand better the inherent energies that we came into this world with and perhaps any big current planetary influences for us, we can learn how to surrender and flow with them instead of against them, as we are more able to create the life we want to live where we thrive and are excited, passionate, open and engaged, instead of a life where we feel we simply exist and are controlled by our experiences.
With this extra dimension added to our understanding of ourselves – relationships, careers, creativity, family issues etc are really given the potential to be understood and transcended, and the gifts that they offer our self-growth can be really be reaped.
Its exciting to be able to offer Astrological Insight Guides at Earth Beauty. For this, you need to know your time of birth, as well as date and place of birth. The Insight Guide costs £75 and can also be given on Skype as well as in person by myself at Earth Beauty in Jersey. Sessions usually last around 1hour and 30mins but can be longer too.
I look forward to journeying with you into your-self!
Sunny Thai musings, sitting in the bed, early in the morn, parts of me reborn, with echoes of the flip flops flapping on the bay. Imagination bags filled to brim with blessings had and sun so bright it shone right out my bum. Shiva’s spiral eyes peeping up in sands below, praying mantis visiting; reminders to go slow and move only with the flow. Days connected, in full power, others eager, sweet n sour, losing time immersed in flowers. Beginning gentle fruity mornings, dancing as the days are dawning and beautiful new friends shining their light, giving daily embraces warm and tight. Sometimes days were harder, times feverish in bed, from frustration I was led, to alchemical healing hall, a playground for transforming all, and pushed right to my edge. Final night in paradise, Bobby’s chocolate cake at ‘Spice’, still lingers on my lips. Giggly gangsta rap-off under the full moon, making crazy tunes, provoked by tall and cheeky bubbly Irish bearded loon. Arriving still arriving, landing back inside, integrating magic and shedding bits that died. Dancing in this gratitude, thanking life and all of you.
Because I need some sunshine, because I need some rest, because I need warmth and beautiful scenery, because I want to do some more experiential studies. It seems that Thailand is offering all the above so I shall be there until the early spring. Do email me if you need to get in contact as I will be checking regularly.
I’ll miss you all and hope to see you when I get back.
Keep well and nourished this winter.
Love Maria x